Today is the day

I decided I was going to blog this.  I'm beginning to feel like every day is going to be a struggle to stay positive and keep going.  I don’t have any new info on our insurance.  Nothing dramatic happened with Jacob today.  This is just something that is helping me get through today.  It may not work for tomorrow, but for now it is giving me joy.  My day started out as usual:  Jacob crying in the wee hours of morning, getting him up and changing his diaper while fighting with him to not eat our Pier 1 velvet pillow on our couch.  I really need to throw those velvet pillows away.  I can’t put Jakey near them without him trying to suffocate his face in them.  Then after I changed Ty and gave him food, we went to the table and I started to feed Jacob his yogurt and after two bites I had  to physically squish his cheeks to open his mouth to get him to eat…All this while he was frantically throwing his arms around to avoid taking bites.  Then I loaded the boys in the car and headed to my moms to give Jordan the clothes I forgot to leave.  On the way home I hear a song with the lyrics, “Today is the day You have made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.”  I started thinking about it.  Have I been rejoicing in the Lord?  Have I been rejoicing in anything?  Yes, I have been praying like crazy but I’m sad, lonely, and scared.  So I look up the verse in my Bible and read it and then reread it.  “This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24….So I have decided today to not complain, to not worry about our circumstance, to keep praying with hope, and to rejoice and praise the Lord.  And you know what?  So far It’s been working.  I’m happier and I am getting more accomplished.  Will this work tomorrow?  I don’t know, but I’m going to try.  So I’ll share these lyrics with you and I hope you read them and have peace and joy…

I'm casting my cares aside
I'm leaving my past behind
I'm setting my heart and mind on You, Jesus

I'm reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good, it's good

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm trusting in what You say
Today is the day
Today is the day

I'm putting my fears aside
I'm leaving my doubts behind
I'm giving my hopes and dreams to You, Jesus

I'm reaching my hands to Yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good, it's good

I will stand upon Your truth
(I will stand upon Your truth)
And all my days I'll live for You
(And all my days I'll live for You)   

Lincoln Brewster

To hear it visit:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nf6kPsDm7B0