God sent His son to die for me. Many times I have reflected on my own salvation and questioned if I could do the same. Would I still honor and love God if he chose to take Jacob in order to glorify Him? I have to trust that God knows what is best for my life, for Jakey's life, and for His glory. I have decided that I am putting Jacob in Gods hands. If God wants to heal Jacob then He will. I have so many people telling me that Jacob is ok. Maybe I am just being paranoid. Either way I am committing to pray for Jacob every day, all day. More importantly I am going to try and have a thankful heart rather than a sad, discouraged, anxious heart. I know I will fall short and worry, but I am going to keep reminding myself that God is in control. As much as I love Jacob, God loves me and Jacob a million times more and in a more perfect way. If God wants Jacob to be autistic then its for a reason. I will embrace it. I will, however, remain hopeful that he is just a little slow. I guess we will have to see, but in the meantime I am making sure he is getting his therapy and keeping track of his milestones. He still isn't meeting most milestones, but hopefully he will catch up. Eci has been coming for about a month. We have seen some improvements in his weight, but not many in his development. I love love this boy.
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