Jacob was a nightmare in the waiting room. It's like he knew we were at the neurologist and decided to put on a show. He was jerking his head all around screaming repetitive sounds and running in circles and then opening and shutting doors about a hundred times. He even grabbed a little girl and wouldn't let go. It was bad. I felt sad for him. I kept trying to pull him out of it, but he was really worked up. Then I had to fill out those dumb forms about his milestones. Seriously, at what point do they stop making me fill out forms that don't pertain to him at all? Its frustrating. If anyone is wondering what the typical 30 month evaluations look like I took a couple pics. I wanted Cret to see what Jacob is supposed to be doing according to the age appropriate forms they give us. In response to question "Are you concerned that your child isn't speaking as well as the other children their age?" I just wrote "He doesn't speak". I tried to laugh about it instead of getting all sad. Still is sad though. As we were about to go into the office another child came in. She was severely handicapped. She couldn't move at all and was strapped in to her wheelchair and was making really loud noises. I watched as everyone stared at her and her mom just put on a brave face. I wanted to just give her a big hug. Man, its so easy to be so sad and worked up when I am so focused on me and on Jacob. We have it so good, don't we? I just thought to myself, "I have to get out of this funk and change my focus and just give it God".
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
(2 Corinthians 12:9-10 ESV)